Love the hurt

My partner has BPD. She can be unfathomably unkind. Sometimes she just wakes up and chooses violence.

And there is no escape that I want. I love her. I accept it.

But the little voice in me asks, “Don’t you think you deserve it?”

Violence mixed into love is all I’ve known. And so I feel safe & at home in the chaos.

But is it healthy? Is it fair?

I feel like it’s making me kinder, but is it also eating away at my peace?

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Amber💘

Being born and raised in the south should have made me more inbred and less tolerant, but something went wrong in the grand scheme of these damned rebels. I am; brutally honest, a connoisseur of stand-up comedy, the eldest child, an aware procrastinator, semi-sweet, easily excitable, a lover of music, late to most events, but most of all. myself without apology.

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